Hey, cesar, here coming to you this time, just me Me by myself. It's a little bit different than how I usually run the podcast. This is actually my very first solo cast and I'm excited to just be in this intimate space with you. So thank you for being here, and what I want to share with you is well, before I go into what I want to share with you, I have a question for you. Do you ever read something like an old note from your past self or a journal entry or something from years ago and you thank yourself? You thank your past self because you actually really needed to hear that. Well, I just had a moment like that and it resonated big time and I was so inspired that I figured you know what. I'm going to come here to the podcast and share with all of you this beautiful message from Caesar of 2018. I sure as heck needed to hear it. The truth is, I've been hiding Fear, won and I lost. I've been hiding Fear, won and I lost, but the good thing is it might have won the battle, but it hasn't won the war. I am still breathing, and so are you, which is good if you're listening to this. So I want to share this article with you that was written in April 26 of 2018. In April 26th of 2018. I'm going to just read it to you and I'll share a few thoughts afterwards. So this article is in loveisournaturecom and it is titled why we Don't Do the Things that Will Bring Us the Greatest Joy.

You know the one thing that if you accomplished or acquired, your entire life would be fulfilled. Yes, that one. Maybe you already accomplished it. If that's you, great Congratulations. Maybe you're well on your way and if that's you, fantastic, keep going. But if you're like that, the vast majority of people, according to a slew of statistics on the internet, chances are you haven't accomplished your thing in quotes, whatever that thing might be. Or maybe you don't have a thing like that. Maybe you did have a thing like that, but it's been so long since you thought about it that you can't even recall what it was. Maybe you're completely resigned about it and gave up on it many years ago. And there you are making the best of things, hoping your kids have a better chance at making it in life than you did. Maybe you don't even think about that thing anymore because it seems so far out of reach that you gave up on it. Maybe it makes you sad to even think about it. Maybe it makes you feel a little bitter about yourself for never going for it.

Maybe you know exactly what your thing is. Maybe you think about it every day, but you have no idea how to get the ball rolling and start moving towards its fruition. Maybe you don't think you have enough knowledge yet. Maybe you don't have enough money for it. Maybe you don't have connections with the right people. Maybe you're in too much debt. Maybe you don't have the right tools. Maybe you don't have the right skills. Maybe you just don't have the right tools. Maybe you don't have the right skills. Maybe you just don't have the time. Maybe it's none of those things. Maybe you don't really know why you haven't gone for that thing because you have all the resources you need, or at least know where to go acquire them. Maybe you've already had to endure too much disappointment, heartbreak and failure in the past.

This is where I get to assert what is really going on. The main reason you haven't gone for it for the thing your thing is that once you do go for it, you will have nowhere to hide. You see, this isn't just some ordinary thing that you would be undertaking. It is the thing, and there are no guarantees of success. There's a chance it could fail, and it would be okay if you failed at some other thing, like a job or something you dabbled in or your firstborn, but not the thing. I hope you know what the thing is for you by now. Otherwise, keep looking. It's not okay if you fail at the thing. Is it Because? Then what? Where do you go after you fail at the thing? What are you supposed to tell people in your life when they ask you how the thing is going? I'll give you another take on it. I can't say it much better than the great Paulo Coelho.

We who fight for our dreams suffer far more when it doesn't work out because we cannot fall back on the old excuse. Oh well, I didn't really want it anyway. We do want it and know that we have staked everything on it and the the path of the personal calling is no easier than any other path, except that our whole heart is in this journey. I'll read that quote again we who fight for our dreams suffer far more when it doesn't work out because we cannot fall back on the old excuse. Oh well, I didn't really want that. Anyway, we do want it and know that we have staked everything on it and that the path of the personal calling is no easier than any other path, except that our whole heart is in this journey. End quote.

For some of us, if we fail at our thing, it seems like death or worse. Even so, here's the thing, the takeaway from the article thing For as long as you resist the idea of its failure, not going for it will always seem like a better idea. Did you get that? It's the whole point here, so I will reiterate it for emphasis For as long as you resist the chance of failure, not going for it will always seem like a better choice, justifiably so. After all, what kind of sane person would put themselves through that kind of risk? And it's that very fear of failure before even starting that is stopping you.

Not just any failure, your things failure. You have to accept that there is a chance of failure and then go for it and then win. I'll say that again you have to accept that there is a chance of failure, then go for it and then win. Here's the good news it will never be the same after you go for it. Even if you fail. You might find that your failures are your greatest teachers. You might find that your failure was a necessary step in order to equip yourself with the lessons that will take you to the accomplishment of your thing. You might find that you can go for it time and time again. You might find that there is an even greater game to play, a greater expression of your thing. You will experience tremendous, rapid growth in who you are. You will discover that you are a lot more capable and competent than you ever imagined. Regardless of how it goes, you will be better off for having gone for it and you just might very well, with this new freedom to act in the face of the chance of failure, accomplish your thing, go for it, put it all on the line, go for love, go for joy, go for fulfillment, go for adventure, go for abundance. Go for it all. It's worth it. Thank you, caesar, from 2018.

Yes, like I said at the beginning, I definitely needed to hear those words. Yes, like I said at the beginning, I definitely needed to hear those words. So here's where I just share, very openly, vulnerably, what is present for me. Having read that, and I realized that a lot of what we listen to out there a lot of podcasts, a lot of influencers. There's people talking about how they made it and, yeah, I'm not exactly where I want to be and I can see how. That's actually one of the things that stopped me from just continuing to put myself out there, put my message out there, because I'm not quite there yet, but that's what inspired me today is, well, what if I got to share with my community the people that I care about, people that I love, the people that take their time to listen to me, talk here what it's like to actually be in it not a well put together, cleaned up version of having done it, but actually being in the trenches. So that's where this is coming from, and it's vulnerable and it's okay. I don't mind if this message serves you. That's all I can ask for.

What I see is that I have been hiding. I have been just waiting for some magical magical what do you call it? A wave of a magic wand to have circumstances be perfect for me to get started. I've been being a victim. I became a father, which has been the greatest blessing of my life, and two years ago almost October 2022, and ever since it's been like, oh, I don't have time. I have a beautiful partner, alana. My son Luca and I got to have balance and spend time with them. I have my marketing agency that I've had for 12 years. That keeps me quite busy, and Alana and I have also been getting to know each other more.

Those who have heard other episodes of the podcast know that we got pregnant three months into our long-distance relationship. I wouldn't recommend that to people. Yet at this point I wouldn't change anything about our journey. It's been the biggest blessing in both our lives, but it sure as heck presented a lot of challenges for us both, and it's time consuming to to build the foundation of a relationship, especially when you're trying to do it quickly. Um and yeah.

Behind all those things and yeah, behind all those things, I realized I started hiding. I was too preoccupied with the motions of life, of fatherhood, of entrepreneurship, of partnership to notice like, hey, uh, what about my calling, what about my message, what about my purpose in the world? And I sold out and I'm done selling out. But I guess there is something here to identify, something here for me to really get and for me to share, because I know I'm not the only one that has taken a back seat on their dream because life has been so demanding. So if you feel that that is you, I invite you to just be here with me in this process and let's together choose to believe that a new reality is possible, that our dream is possible.

One of the parts about my dream is telling stories without realizing. When I first started the blog and then when I started the podcast as well, I realized I really enjoyed telling stories and I noticed in December of 2020, when I had a huge transformational experience with Akashic Record Reading on the 18th of December and another ayahuasca journey the following day on the 19th there was a big calling for me. I think that's the day I identified my calling. I identified how much I needed to dive deeply into my heart to heal the pain that I had been carrying, without even realizing it, if I ever wanted to be true to myself, if I ever wanted to have a heart-to-heart connection and relationship with another woman. Yeah, there's lots I could say about that, and those of you that have followed me for any amount of time know that I dove deeply into that journey and when I dove into that journey, I realized you know what this time is going to be for me.

I quit coaching. I've been involved with Landmark for six years, leading different types of programs and coaching people, so I quit coaching people together to just focus on me, and it was a beautiful, effective process. I gotta say I am definitely blessed in that way to to be able to look back and realize, okay, that that happened. I wanted to connect with my heart, heal my heart and and that happened. By the end of that year I was with 2021. I was in love with myself and it was no coincidence alana showed up as an outer manifestation of my inner world. But part of what got planted in my heart in December of 2020 in that ceremony was, if I figure this out, I'm going to share with people, because I just knew, especially from having coached a lot of people, that there are many people that need this process, that need to connect to the depths of their heart, that need to release hard-boiled pain, that need to heal their traumas and that really want to. So, if I figure this out I made a promise in that moment I'm going to share it. So I started sharing my own journey through Love is Our Nature the podcast.

But since becoming a father, I can see I sold out. And there's something else that I see. I wanted to put together an offering to begin guiding men. Once I felt that I was at a place where I had some idea as to what this journey looked like. But that is not so simple, especially if I am committed that what I offer has integrity, that what I offer isn't some fluff or just like step one, but know how to take somebody from where they are to just full connection with their heart, with their essence, with the truth, with the wisdom within their heart, so that they can be who they really are out in the world and with others in connection.

So as I started to birth these offerings, I can see that I stepped back on my storytelling because I was like, okay, well, I got to have these offerings ready. If I'm going to tell people more about this process, tell more stories, like I should be able to hand them something, a tool, have something to offer or even something to sell, right that they can acquire that tool and go for it. And that's also where I sold out. You know how I sold out Because when I tune into my soul, when I tune into my heart, I realize I'm a storyteller before I'm a coach, and that's where I sold out. I stopped sharing, I stopped telling stories because I didn't have a cleaned up product to sell yet, and that's so inauthentic. And I'm happy to have caught myself there, because whether or not I got a perfect something to offer people doesn't mean I can't keep on telling stories. And, sure enough, there are many stories that wanted to get told from my heart that didn't get told, so that's why I'm here. That didn't get told, so that's why I'm here.

This is story number one from this new chapter, this story of my hiding. So that article definitely resonated for me today when I read it, and a few things that came up for me today when I read it and a few things that came up for me when listening to it, is that one of the things that stopped me is I've been resenting myself for not telling those stories. There's so many articles I didn't write, not just since 2021, even before that, since I first sat with Ayahuasca, and also from diving deeply into transformational coaching, from embracing Kriya Yoga. There's many stories that didn't get told and the more I didn't tell those stories, the more I resented myself and it became this downward spiral. It's like this snowball effect, and so that's one of the things I realized that resenting myself for not taking action, for not telling those stories. It only created a downward spiral of self-resentment and self-blame.

And maybe you find yourself in a similar place. Maybe there's been so much action you didn't take, so many things that you knew you should have done that. You didn't do that. You tell yourself, well, what's the point of starting now? There's so much you didn't do that. You tell yourself, well, what's the point of starting now? There's so much I didn't do, so that's, that's just a um, a limiting belief. Nobody's perfect. That's one of the main messages from this podcast today is it's okay to not be perfect, it's okay to have fear and not take action?

Identifying why I got stopped and overcoming it is the lesson, that's the goal that will have me continuing moving forward. Not to look back and say, oh, wow, I got stopped so much. What's the point now? I guess I just should give up. No, but to identify why did I get stopped? And sure, there are actions I didn't take, but how about I pick up where I left off? How about I make today day one once again, and this time continue and not stop. It takes something I I gotta tell you, I feel it in my heart even now, like is this gonna be any different? Here I am telling a story. Will there be another story after this? I don't know. There are, there are no guarantees. But what I do know now is that I feel reconnected to my purpose, feel reconnected to my why.

I feel like I have identified a lot of the self-judgment, self-criticism, self-resentment, self-blame that I've been piling on myself that has kept me from taking action again, and I definitely have identified all the excuses that I make about how there's just no time for this. There's no time to sit here and turn on the mic and speak to you all. There's no time to put an inspiring message out there. There's no time to share my heart and that's bullshit. No time to share my heart, and that's bullshit. I've been perpetuating that paradigm of there is no time so that I can hide, and it happens subconsciously.

I mean, I am a dad, I have a child. I also have a super woman, mom, by my side, who's actually supporting me with absolutely everything, every intention that I plant. She plants it with me. So she's happy to support me, just as I'm happy to support her in making her dreams come true and pursuing her calling. Making her dreams come true and pursuing her calling. And, yes, I do have a marketing business with a team that need my attention, that are counting on me, and that's just part of it. I know I'm not the only person to have a full-time occupation out there that started something on the side that was their passion. That's probably how most people's stories go Working full-time on something while they build their dream on the side. I know I'm not the only man to have a child and pursue his passion, pursue his dream.

So I'm done with the excuses. I'm done with that. So I will share on a regular basis I'll figure out the rhythm in a moment, perhaps as soon as I'm done recording here or something like once every couple weeks at the max, I'm sorry at a minimum along those lines, and continue sharing with you all. That's the second piece of it, right, the accountability. One thing is seeing okay, I haven't been doing it, I'm going to go for it. The second part is the structure. Okay, well, what are those actions going to look like? What am I going to hold myself accountable to? What am I going to allow others to hold me accountable to. That's the fire, the fire of accountability, the fire of dharma right, your joy and your duty. So here I am, stepping into that fire.

Thank you for listening to me sharing from my heart today. I know this is a little bit different, but it feels nice to connect with you. I hope that you got something out of listening today. The main thing that I got from having this conversation with you today is to stop hiding, to go for it. Any excuses that I have are just a facade, just a way to hide, and I fool myself into thinking they're true. So I invite you to take the leap. As Caesar from 2018 said, whatever that thing is, go for it. I know it's there in your heart. If you sit with yourself for even 15 minutes, with your eyes closed, in a meditation, asking yourself what's really here? What does my soul want to express? What does my heart want to express to the world? What do I want to leave behind before I die? I promise you you'll find something. So, whatever that is, go for it. Thank you for listening. I love you. Bye-bye, until next time.